We are getting back into the swing of things. I have been at work since last Monday. Madi only missed a day and a half last week. Ash and Madi both have days filled with school, homework, dance, soccer, volleyball, talent show, jog-a-thons, friend time and just the normal crazy of spring leading up to the end of the school year. Life is busy, B-U-S-Y!!!!
I got a "high-five" from my boss as he was in the attendance meeting for making it 5 days... I am hoping that if I make it all week this week I too get a new shiny pencil... or a starbucks card. :) I am quickly remembering how much of myself I give when teaching, it is no "desk job". (please do not take offense, I believe all of us have challenges at our jobs...) I am grateful to be back in so many ways because a schedule and "normalcy" on some level is so good and healing. On the other hand, I came home Friday with the start of a wonderful head cold. GERMS~!!!!!!!!!!!! Today I taught with no voice. Yup, that is always interesting One of my boys spoke for me all day... which is great, because it kept him focused. Win-Win!
There is such a short time left in the year and we all intend to finish strong.
To be honest though, I cannot stress this enough, Madi IS cancer free, THANK GOD, but we are NOT done, and we never will be. If she gets sick I will wonder: "Is this a headache or tumor growth?". I will always ask myself, "At what point to I need to call the Dr. and be proactive and a voice for all the testing in the world?" We have MRI"s every three months, growth hormones in our future and side effects to tackle. Our odds are AMAZING, but the reality is, the odds of us being where we are were slim and none... even less for a girl to get this type of cancer... so there is that. I won't let it rule my life- being fear driven is not me, the "what if" game makes me crazy and I refuse to play. But it is there, and I know from talking with other Momma's who have gone through this, it will probably never go away and that's OK. That's reality...
We got this...
I got a "high-five" from my boss as he was in the attendance meeting for making it 5 days... I am hoping that if I make it all week this week I too get a new shiny pencil... or a starbucks card. :) I am quickly remembering how much of myself I give when teaching, it is no "desk job". (please do not take offense, I believe all of us have challenges at our jobs...) I am grateful to be back in so many ways because a schedule and "normalcy" on some level is so good and healing. On the other hand, I came home Friday with the start of a wonderful head cold. GERMS~!!!!!!!!!!!! Today I taught with no voice. Yup, that is always interesting One of my boys spoke for me all day... which is great, because it kept him focused. Win-Win!
There is such a short time left in the year and we all intend to finish strong.
To be honest though, I cannot stress this enough, Madi IS cancer free, THANK GOD, but we are NOT done, and we never will be. If she gets sick I will wonder: "Is this a headache or tumor growth?". I will always ask myself, "At what point to I need to call the Dr. and be proactive and a voice for all the testing in the world?" We have MRI"s every three months, growth hormones in our future and side effects to tackle. Our odds are AMAZING, but the reality is, the odds of us being where we are were slim and none... even less for a girl to get this type of cancer... so there is that. I won't let it rule my life- being fear driven is not me, the "what if" game makes me crazy and I refuse to play. But it is there, and I know from talking with other Momma's who have gone through this, it will probably never go away and that's OK. That's reality...
We got this...